FOR A DOLLAR.
NAME THREE WHITE PEOPLE.
this is the funniest thing i’ve seen in a really long time what the fuck
So it turns out trying to discuss things is in fact a waste of time. I keep trying to think of way to explain things, but there’s no point. They don’t DO that, nothing explained, no context, no justification. Just nothing. That is the most common response, nothing at all. Silence. That could have been filled with “what do you mean?”, “you mean like X?”, “what about X are you talking about?”, “so X but not Y?”, “what are you referring to when you use that word?”, and just so much else. But no, nothing. I don’t see how people even manage to function, honestly. Guess you just have to get lucky and end up like everyone else. Fucked that one up. Not that I had a choice. And no one’s going to ask about it, not that anyone would know how. People don’t know how to understand things. That’s why they go quiet, or leave, or get angry. Depending on how you look at it, anyway. And I’m looking at how they’re not like me, because people won’t fucking tell me anything. It’s all I have, and that means I’m fucked. Dead in the water. Can’t even pull the fucking trigger.
COMMANDER SHEPPPY FUCK YES.
oh the irony
I’m just going to go ahead and continuously pump my fist in the air and scream like a fangirl for a few minutes, don’t mind me.
Samus, a la Smash Brothers Brawl. Oh la la. My boyfriend, on the other hand, has Donkey Kong. Hah!
I am so ok with this.
His voice is the voice of the heavens.
So long as we remain within that possibility.
I may be able to work with this.
I think the last video game I played was Animal Crossing…
Jason Brody from Far Cry 3.
He’ll happily murder pirates by the boatload for me, which is good. He’s also completely insane, which is bad. And he’s heavily armed, which is even worse.
On the upside, at least we can go hunting together. With grenade launchers and machineguns.
My EVE character, which is basically me but thinner. And with a different face because I didn’t feel like messing around with the character creator. Sounds good to me.
I thought it would be different this time. No, as it turns out, I still can’t pull the fucking trigger. God damn it. The fuck do I do now?
edit: I never *wanted* to die per se. I wanted to stop feeling alone all the goddamn time.
I think I’ve figured out the moment that conversations go bad. When someone has an opinion, and I have a different opinion, it’s an opportunity to learn something. Maybe they know something I don’t, maybe there’s more to the issue that I previously thought, maybe I know something they don’t. And when a difference opinion comes up people could share their ideas and their reasoning and everyone would be better off for it. That never happens. Instead, when differences come up people turn it into an argument. I couldn’t learn anything if I wanted to because people don’t share the genuine reasons *they* believe things if they’re just trying to argue. And yeah, I could avoid the argument itself. But I shouldn’t have to. More to the point, that discussion where we share ideas wouldn’t happen in either case. So I don’t avoid conflict, because that would entail avoiding the situation I’m actually looking for. But, it never happens that way regardless, so I guess I’ve been wasting my time. It only takes one person to argue. Though a lot of people just stop talking instead of addressing conflicts, which is effectively the same as arguing.
One of the most troublesome things, I’m not sure what to call it, is “normalizing” of ideas. When people don’t quite understand or don’t understand what I’m trying to say, they just pick the closest thing they *do* understand and go with that. By far that has been the most frustrating thing to deal with. For two reasons, mainly because it is then impossible to convey what I *do* mean, and when I can explain the first problem to whatever degree, people seem to think overcoming it is impossible. Like you can’t test what people mean, it’s trivial, really. You just need the right data. And to know when you’ve misunderstood something in the first place. If I have to explain it to you then I’m not going to be able to explain it. It’s like the right version makes so much more sense than anything else. And if it doesn’t quite work, then it’s wrong. But I imagine none of this makes sense anyway, I’m probably wasting my time. Not that I have anything better to do with it. I guess that’s why I’m doing it; nothing to lose.
This is what I know: I recently had an internet argument with a crazy libertarian friend, (on facebook, where else?). He went on and on about we should use any excuse possible to deny people access to the social safety net (drug testing, deportation, requiring them to get expensive IDs to receive welfare, whatever) — because if you receive government benefits you’re a lazy moocher who’s stealing from hard working Americans.
I engaged him for pages, but eventually realized it was a waste of time because we want completely different things.The next day, he was bragging about how he schooled some idiot liberal in a debate, and how good it feels to blast somebody with THE TRUTH. But I’m like, dude, you actually made your position MORE repulsive to me. I am less sympathetic to your points than ever. The odds of me voting for these policies you support has actually decreased.I’m developing an allergy to these culture-war debates that go nowhere. To me, the only reasoning that matters is the one that will actually resolve the tension.Fast forward, I’m debating with a devout Christian friend about same sex marriage. His point is that he doesn’t hate gays, he’s a christian so he doesn’t hate anybody, but he doesn’t think it’s right to redefine a religious tradition, etc etc. He’s arguing that religion should be protected from politics.Rather than going down the dead-end path of “You’re wrong about what marriage is,” I pointed out that most Rabbis are fine with same sex marriage.So if his point is that religions shouldn’t be changed based on politics, why support a law which prevents Jews from practicing their religion freely?Dude actually changed his mind! I’ve never seen that before.So I try to keep that exchange in mind before I rant at people.
Why should any of that be necessary? Why should people be so devoted to their point of view that you have to trick them into considering other things?
Where I’m from: Central Texas
Where I would like to live: not Texas
Favourite food: PO-TA-TOES
Sexual orientation: Bi
Favourite book: I haven’t read things in a while.
Eye colour: Brown? I don’t feel like checking.
Favourite movie: Clerks
Favourite TV shows: Sherlock
Favourite band/singer: NIN
Favourite day of the year: Every day is terrible
Favourite colours: Colors suck, fuck color
If I have any pets: A cat with one eye
What I’m listening to right now: The soft humming of my computer
What’s my ringtone: Why would I need a phone?
What my name means: It’s the name my parents didn’t give me
Favorite male character from a TV show/book: I dunno
Favorite female character from a TV show/book: TV sucks